I received Afraid of All Things by Scarlet Hiltibidal via the publisher in exchange for an honest and unbiased review
I drug my feet while reading Afraid of All Things by Scarlet Hiltibidal for many reasons, reasons I could provide an exhaustive list for you all to read, but I don’t want to torture y’all. The main reason I took forever to read and review this title was because it was so REAL. There wasn’t one page that I couldn’t relate to and didn’t want to hunt down the author and tell her we are soul sisters.
You may not know, but I have PTSD, social anxiety (anxiety in general), and I suffer with severe depression. All this becomes translated into me fearing almost everything simply because I am still learning about how my trauma affects my everyday life.
Hiltibidal’s recollection of her childhood caused me anxiety simply because of the fear of the unknown that she endured. We (Hiltibidal and I) don’t have the same struggles but the message that she’s sharing within Afraid of All Things speaks to me on a cellular level. The writing was becoming so impactful that I began taking notes and underlying while reading, something I rarely do when reading for leisure.
There were many moments when I found myself having no other words to convey my astonishment at how she was able to break down lessons and teachings you’ve probably heard before except for words “wow,” and “whoa.” When she said “The things about anxiously wired people … is that our minds can twist everything – even comfort, even Truth – into something else to be afraid of,” let me know immediately that I had found a kindred spirit.
I really recommend Afraid of All Things to those who are struggling with how to invite God into their struggle with fear and anxiety. We aren’t meant to be superheroes who don’t show our scars, if we are to truly follow in Jesus’ footsteps we should embrace our scars just as He did when He returned before His ascension.
Oh! Before I go, Hiltibidal gifted me, from one sister in Christ to another, a life verse that will carry me through this season of my life. She put a whole new anointing on this verse that I had to re-read it multiple times just to make sure I was reading what I was seeing, and that the feeling of finally getting it wasn’t a fluke.
Proverbs 28:13 is a verse I will memorize and carry with me, remembering that I am never alone in any battle I find myself facing.